was the title of the draft post I started two days ago. Of course I didn’t finish it. Yesterday the post could have been more appropriately titled getting my butt kicked and giving out my name to everybody. It was tough.
I hit my stride during the week and I felt like I was accomplishing a lot. I got a medicine cabinet assembled and hung all in one day. I registered Jack for kindergarten and completed a number of other small but satisfying tasks. Yesterday, though I hit a wall. I just couldn’t seem to get anything done and the list of tasks seemed to grow by the minute.
This morning I think I have some insight into why yesterday seemed so hard and why this task in general seemed so difficult. To say that sometimes I bite off more than I can chew is an understatement. I am a big fan of overdoing it. It is generally a good thing. I constantly challenge myself and often rise to the occasion. Sometimes though, too much is simply too much. Did I really have to make the pumpkin bread yesterday morning along with the chili? When life seemed to be spiraling out of control should I have persisted with all my little goals or should I have jettisoned some of the more useless ones to keep the bigger priorities. In the end, the one thing I didn’t get to do, a long walk with my friend and training partner is the one I missed the most. We could have ordered take-out instead of eating the homemade chili. I could have just made the pumpkin bread today. One could argue that even the kids would have been better behaved yesterday if I had spent more time with them in the morning and not cooking and rushing around to home improvement stores to get things for the handyman. Sometimes I don’t finish projects because of things completely within my control. That I need to work on. Sometimes I don’t finish things because life is just busy. That is when I need to stop and reorganize my priorities.
This weeks challenge was good for me. I didn’t really meet the resolution entirely but I think I gained some insights into my behavior. Isn’t that the point of this year anyway? Today I will try to reschedule that walk from yesterday. I even finished this post. Score one for Leslie.